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part 3 -
         apology from anorexia to
         myself 
      
   
   

      

         
August
         2006
      
      

         

      
   



   

      

         

      
      

         
 
         
         
DOCUMENT 3 AUGUST 10,
         2006 - DAVID, AGED 13YEARS
         
         
 
         
         
In the month of November
         in the year of
         
         
2005, I was smothered in
         the darkness of anorexia and
         
         
perfectionism. Over the
         next few months, I was starved, my
         
         
confidence was stolen,
         everything had to be perfect and if I
         
         
made a mistake I was
         cruelly punished. I was no longer in
         
         
charge of my
         life.
         
         
 
         
         
It is now in the month of
         August in the
         
         
year of 2006. As I write
         this I am no longer smothered in
         
         
the darkness and I hope
         that nothing I do in the future is
         
         
ever perfect again. I
         have fought unbelievably hard and I
         
         
have come out of the
         ordeal and out of the darkness into
         
         
life and to the light. It
         may have only taken six months or
         
         
so to defeat this
         psychological monster but to me it felt
         
         
like a lifetime. And now
         that I have come out of this
         
         
peril, I feel that I have
         been given a second chance. I can
         
         
now have fun, my
         confidence is slowly coming back, I am back
         
         
to doing well at school
         and most importantly I accept myself
         
         
and I am proud of how I
         am unique. I have ambitions to be a
         
         
doctor and I hope this
         experience can help me understand
         
         
others. I no longer try
         to find faults within myself and I
         
         
find that I would rather
         be myself than anyone I've ever
         
         
met. Too me that feels
         like a huge victory. I have made
         
         
good friends and I enjoy
         going to school to acquire new
         
         
knowledge.
         
         
I feel so close to being
         completely back
         
         
to normal and if this is
         as normal I'm going to get, I am
         
         
completely satisfied. I
         have found the war with its many
         
         
battles and I have won. I
         have rediscovered
         
         
happiness.