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         Number 58
         
         
Date: April, 2006
      
      

         APOLOGY FROM
         ANOREXIA TO MYSELF - PART TWO
         
         
DAVID (AGED
         12)
      
   
   

      

         

      
      

         
Dear Anorexia:
         
         
 
         
         
Before we met, I was a
         happy, humorous and strong young man. Then, once
         
         
upon a time when I was
         feeling down, you came to me and lied about how
         you
         
         
could make my life so
         much better and easier. I believed and trusted
         you
         
         
from that day onwards,
         doing everything you told me to no matter what
         effect
         
         
it might have on me. I
         stopped eating. I hid away from my friends and
         
         
family. I refused to
         laugh or smile and most of all, the real me
         became
         
         
hidden in the depths of
         our disgusting lies. But now as I write this, I
         can
         
         
see how many fights have
         resulted in victory. You reduced me to a
         
         
dangerous size but now I
         am x kgs. heavier. I have learnt to be with
         
         
people, friends, family
         and ultimately good company. I have won back my
         
         
smile and good humour. I
         no loner have to force a fake laugh at things and
         
         
my smile is at its
         brightest. My old strength is returning to me. I
         can
         
         
sense my old self
         emerging and I can't remember feeling this good.
         Now,
         
         
more than ever, I can
         feel my anger concentrated on you. It was you who
         
         
did all of this to me and
         it's you that I will get my revenge against. I
         
         
shall banish you from my
         life forever. I am half way there and still
         
         
getting stronger. Soon
         the real me shall fully emerge and you will
         
         
disappear forever. That
         day, I have no doubt, will be the best day of my
         
         
life. Because it will be
         the day thta you lose the war and my suffering
         
         
ends. I am getting
         stronger every day and its only a matter of time
         before
         
         
I reemerge as the hapy,
         humourous and strong young man that I once was. I
         
         
am on the road to
         recovery and I will not let you stand in my way.
         
         
 
         
         
Yours stronger than ever
         before,
         
         
 
         
         
David.